I don't know what to say...
if I did, I'd be a writer. But I'm more of a musician or something
all I have to give is a stream of thought fragments...my introspective hell if you will
I try to be poetic and deep and funny and stuff
what is it, being sincere over serious
I'm just sleepwalking through life. Nothing is real
but I seek the surreal over what is real
lack imperative and that's the option
to milk the dream as long as you can...even when you are well-rested and it's time to wake up and face reality
and logic, rationality
facts don't care about feelings- it's a cold uncaring world
but what people deem as 'facts'...are often totally based on our feelings...it's called confirmation bias
I say that I act according to principle and innate duties
IOW: a veil to act like a pretentious jerk (not my words)
language is a necessary pragmatism but ultimately a prison
restricting and incapable of expressing pure sensation
which are just temporary, sporadic actions that will never be enough
the only option is to fade back into a cloud of innocuity
peace out
I'm close to peace
are you?
Cyberdevil
If you just found the right one, that worldview surely would shift into something bright and fiery I feel, I've heard stories; I'm still searching myself... albeit inactively. Apathetically. Without the gall to make real commitment, maybe.
But what is writing other than stream of mind. An attempt to make sense of the occasional inner turmoil and contemplation. It's what it's best for.. I feel. Maybe you could turn to strings? Find some therapy in sound again?
We invented the language we use after all, and maybe didn't know ourselves well enough to build it in a way that it'd truly let us express all things worth expressing, but maybe that is the direction it keeps evolving in, the more we know, the more words to that end...
I'm not close to peace at all yet but: hope to find. Closer, at least, than years back. Enlightenment comes through the struggle. The needles that poke through your bubble. A behemoth you'll rise through the rubble... I'm sure.
And find some peace some more.