...clever girl.
Still, I wouldn't sweat it too hard on the music. Naturally, "You are your own worst critic." and like anything, of course you'll be stretched for time and/or motivation to get it done, what with having a life to live like normal people and all. But the more you do it, the more confident you'll become at it, the more skilled you become at it, the more I'm telling you things you already know. So keep it up! That shit aint gonna play itself.
And anytime. :D
Galneda
"Nil Illigitemus Carborundom"
...it's Latin for "Don't let the bastards get ya down."
Stoudemire? What can ya do. The rejection? Bitch probably wasn't worth your time anyway...and I know I'm an asshole for even suggesting it, but think of this realistically, and just be patient. You're 15. Situations with women around that age are fickle and usually disasterous anyway, so just wait it out. As for your musical skills, you need to acknowledge how you're fucking up and fix it by practicing the ever-loving shit out of it. It's going to be difficult, but "if it were easy, everybody would do it." Right? Right. They say it takes 10,000 hours devoted to one task before you become a legitimate expert at it, so keep up the good work.
And the trolls? Fuck'em. They're on the internet, and their virgin asses chuckle the cheeto crumbs off of their Smurf shirt because they have no real social life or anything better to do. The best thing you can do, since their after negative attention, ISN'T to give them what they want and let them ruin your day. Rise above the bullshitters, and shrug 'em off. By ignoring them, they fade into obscurity in their parent's basement.
tl:dr, buck-up.
S3C
lmao. i'm not really 15. i suppose i just wasnt really her type...and i havent really been trolled (recently). just thought i would throw that in at the end for humor value. And Outliers is a great book. the problem with music (as all creative fields) is there's so many different damn areas, composition, performing different instruments, theory, aural recognition, sound design, synthesis, mixing, musicology, history, philosophy, psychology, arranging, listening, analyzing, hardware, sampling, reviewing....not enough time to do it all. anyways i dont think i'm TERRIBLE but selling myself short helps me sleep at night, and lowers expectations :p
even tho this was just meant to be a joke post (i wouldnt really consider this a bad day lol), I still appreciate your time and advice man.